Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in oiseau_de_mer's InsaneJournal:

Sunday, February 3rd, 2008
12:54 pm	one dollar one dollar one dollar these days have been so fucking long lately, i go to school a lot of the time its boring me i feel inept in my print making class, i've spent a lot of money on the class though so i dont want to drop it...hmm what else robs court date was met with such grace, because we spent about 4-5 days before the date, in AA meetings finishing up his time cards for his class, they said that he was ok, that he could go, it was fucking awesome so happy to know that we have no reason to worry anymore, and if we get pulled over they have no right to search the car ahh anyways, shits hard right now, it seems to get harder everday, we got chas to cali and he stayed for a couple months and the first chance he takes of again, it kinda pisses me off but on a better note are dear corey is coming home in 2 months!!!!!!!! im so happy about that, i miss him, and teddy a lot lately, i see ben alot, because every thursday him, mowan, zach rob and i DND which brings the geek in me such joy rob slept in my bed the other night, it was beautiful i cant explain this to anyone the joy, i feel for him and me, 7 months in a couple days <3 im planning a big suprise for that he gets the 14th and i get the 10th ^_^ i love you all and miss u tons, we never talk anymoere :sobs a litte: Current Mood: touched Current Music: cinderella (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 21st, 2008
11:01 am	feathers and ice its snowing here, when i looked up at the sky all i saw was tiny little feathers falling down on me, i honsetly thought i was still asleep, then i went into panic mode, sara just left for the mountains, dads in town at work in his shitty car, liz just left my house to drive to cottonwood, ash has to get back up the hill from redding, and Rob, is well he should be driving to work but fuck 4 of those cars im not so sure are snow equiped im worried sara is driving into a storm....it sucks but then i look outside and i remember michaela and rob making snowmen and playing in the snow and im like aww memorys and i miss him, and i doubt that i will see him today and i have school tomorrow and i need to read those pysch chapters but i just got the L word season 4 box set, black snake moan, and marie antonett and reading those chapters on memory just seem to well, start to slip my mind.(Liz, sara and I went shopping yesterday i got, those movies a harry potter t-shirt thats BA, some black and red boots that were cheap, umm michaelas charger for her game boy that i gave her, hmm a vitamin water, a banner from thiland,hmm idk what else ^_^) I wanna take pictures today, but i'll be stuck working off of my gay camera, liz says that shes gonna take Ruddy (her shit of a brother total scum of life's) camera, and give it to me, and i know thats "bad" but he's a fucker so i dont really care and its a camera so the "badness" of her taking it and giving it to me doesnt really seem to show in my eyes... joana is 2 months pregnat im very excited to know that, i really hope this baby lives to term because her past health i worry that she will again misscary, she texts and calls me everday now to say good morning and goodnight we talk as much as we can and im trying to find a way for both rob and i to drive up to salem for spring break, so we can stay with her, this only causes a problem because im also saving money for robs 21st birthday that will be spent in sanfrancisco i want to get him a GREAT present, and my Mummas birthday is the 8th of march so she has to have PERFECT gift, and his is the 30th of march and michaelas is the 24th of april so im birthday overwhelemed again...ehh i dont know what else to say, i got robs cough and congestion i have a snotty nose im having horrid back pains using and inhaler that tastes like death drinking syrups and popping pills, and joy its snowing and i have school tomorrow im going to go watch the L word now ok i love you all -Jacky Dear Rob: I swear if u die on the way to or from work that I will raise your corpse and shove my foot up ur tiny white ass ok...I love you babe I really really do <3 Current Mood: artistic Current Music: death cab for cutie- sound of settleing (Comment on this)
Friday, January 18th, 2008
10:59 pm	dietary supplements and plastic flowers sometimes i close my eyes, and they feel like they wont open ever again, like all the chemicals that i have put into my hair and brain are seeping outward, i fear sometimes that its not just an irrelevant thought like when i was sitting in printmaking the other day, and we were watching an interesting film but i crashed out on the table, i bet i snored and everyone heard me, i hope not its hard enough being akward without people thinking im narcoleptic to, i feel asthough i am the sponge of the universe but the universe doesnt want me to soak up pretty little things like umm water, or puppies, flowers, zombies eating skulls and gaining knowledge no no no, the world wants me to feel worn around the edges like my how my nails keep cracking and i keep grinding the enamel of my teeth i can hear my mom snoaring in her sleep an i feel so comforted this is the first night in four that i am sleeping without him and i hate it i cant move right i need to wash my clothes i washed my self but the shower was to hot, then to cold, then to lonely so i got out, i dont like to wash my hair...i think ill let it grow into dreads again, idk really what i am typing im back in college idk if i like it yet, i like not being completly alone walking around that place scares me the people tower over my 4'10 frame, eating their hearts out on rotten pedestrian style life forms this world is a large persons place im forever shrinking, against it all pretty soon ill be the wallpaper NEAT HUH much love -Jacky dear rob: i am sorry we are sick, lets try not to be total human butt wipes to everyone come sleep with me in bed and ill make u tea and let u have it in ur favorite tea cup AWW f8 just jumped up and grabbed my hand with his little paw i think he misses u i love u endlessly... Current Mood: sick Current Music: revolution the beatles (Comment on this)